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I know I blog about the silliest things perhaps....but I'm just sharing some of the sweet and memorable things going on in the Stanley household these days.

Tonight's event was a little sad to me.  It was a good day, but after a final trip to see just a few minutes of Andrew's soccer practice, the girls, Jake and I headed home and I swept Jake upstairs for a quick bath and then into his room.  While we were taking our nightly look at Jake's spider that he is amazed at, I lost my balance and began to fall over a big toy that occupies a good bit of the floorspace.  I was holding Jake and just had that out of control feeling that comes with falling.  Somehow I managed not to drop him and just stumped my toes pretty hard and will certainly have a nice bruise on my thigh, but the whole experience along with a bit of yelping, just sent Jake into a frenzy of screaming and reaching for his crib.  I realized right away that I had to get it together and was just thinking why he'd want in his crib so bad.  I figured out pretty quickly that his crib at least for the first year of his life was probably his safe place.  It was where he was most of the time and was a comfort to him.  So then to see him reaching for his crib and insistent that I let him go and in, just made me so sad.  His crying didn't stop for a while and though eventually he did calm and want to see the spider again, he didn't want anything to do with our normal snuggling routine and ended up getting in his crib without drinking his bottle.  I haven't heard a peep from him and respect that that's what he needed at the time.  I also know tomorrow brings another day and the wonderful thing about being his mom is that I get to do it all over again and show him my love and that we are here for him.  Thank you for letting me share and for your prayers.