Thankful

In the last week or so I have noticed a change...yes, I think things are changing with Jake but things are also changing with me.  I wish I could describe how my heart is changing but early on I just felt so much stress.  I was so overwhelmed and nervous and anxious about so many things.  Fear at times would overcome me.  I'd know that it wasn't from the Lord but struggled to think right.  But now it seems that I am finally getting into a groove and I just feel like I have had a newborn and things are finally settling down.  It's almost like the way you feel when they finally sleep through the night.  Jake has been doing that for a while (which is a huge, huge praise in and of itself), but I just have a better perspective on life.  Some of the behaviors that we saw early on are diminishing and he just blends right in and each of us is developing such a sweet and unique relationship with him.  It is so neat to watch.  Tonight we prayed before going to bed and honestly he just wants to pray and often takes over.  He somehow gets it though we are far away from describing what Christ did on the cross.  Honestly he just knows that Jesus is God, that he loves him (Jake), and that He made the moon.  But boy does he like to pray at night.  Tonight he just went on and on.  A couple of times I had to stop him and find out what he was saying.  One thing he said was "school", well that's our co-op.  He just loves going there and when he unclenched (don't know if that's a word) his eyes when I asked him what he said, he just as plainly as possible said "school".  It was almost like, "what you mean you couldn't understand that".  And then he said a bit later "moon" but it came out kind of weird so I asked him again what he said and it was just precious.  He then again very plainly said "moon" and looked even more annoyed like "what's wrong with you Mama".  Anyway, I decided to leave well enough along and he just prayed and prayed.  He is very thankful.  And so am I.